What I show the world is a smile.

When really I want to cry.

This pain is really hard to explain, only thing I can say is I hurt.

If it’s not one thing it’s another. Why can’t I just be happy?

Gosh my life is so crappy. No one understands what it’s like to be me.

Everyone thinks it’s all fun and games but it’s not. But they will no because my pain will never show. Because that’s the type of person I am.

I express my feelings through writing but lately writing hasn’t been very helpful.

I keep running into walls and opening the wrong doors.

I just want to go to Eden and live on top of the world.

But I guess I have to earn it. I wish god would just send me a sign telling me everything will be okay. But quite frankly it doesn’t work that way.

During the day I cry in the inside and laugh to hide the pain. But at night I cry myself to sleep. Then think to myself dag this is really deep.

At this age I shouldn’t be stressed but I guess this day in time that’s normal.

All I do is pray that one day I’ll get my break through. Sometimes I just wish it could be handed to me on a silver plate. I'm stuck; I don't know what to do from here.

Prayer helps, I guess I'll keep praying.